How come, Lord, that I don't seem to have joy?
How come, reading David in Psalms, he seems to have joy in you?
He is confident that you will vindicate him.
I thank you, Lord, that you will vindicate me; however, there is in me that I don't deserve your vindication, but rather I deserve punishment.
Somehow, I accept your punishment more than your vindication.
I'm not good. I don't have the integrity to be vindicated by you.
Lord, teach me.
What is sanctification?
Help me to be confident in you. Empower me. Take my life.
I really want to be with you. Let me know who you are.
Let me have joy.
It is my comfort that to "die is gain", but I still fear to lose you.
I still am not taking comfort, even understanding, that to "live is Christ".
Teach me, Lord.
