Is she really mourning or just sad and in self-pity?
She wanders around looking for comfort. The comfort she had before is gone. She got angry and now she is in a loss. Every one seems to be moving on and seems to be changing. Even enemies are meeting each other again like nothing happened. Has she forgiven? She thinks she has, but she no longer trusts, believe, and love the way she loved....her human sacrificial way of love. She is also confused with the Christlike love and the love she once had. She does know she doesn't love anymore. She is alone and hurting.
She wanders around looking for help in understanding the Bible, to answer her questions. However, people doesn't seem to find her questions simple. She wonders, have they given up answering her questions because they are hard or they are just busy. So many questions, she only wants to know Truth, is that not too hard to understand. She is alone and hurting.
She wanders, how come God allows this but still punishes people, as she reads the Old Testament. She really wants to know God and His Word, but she is alone and hurting.
She is gloomy. She is alone and hurting.
She does mourn that she has her shortcomings and iniquities. She does want to be what God commands her to be, to be holy and righteous, to be joyful, yet she is alone and hurting.
Why is she so sad?
She is alone and hurting.
